Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
I remember helping at my grandmother's restaurant when I was little. We would go really early in the morning, while it was still dark, to make the donuts and pies. Yes, homemade. She would reward me with the donut or pastry of my choice, always warm and fresh and dripping with glaze (sorry if I'm giving you too much of a visual) and we would sit at a booth before the doors were open and she would let me have a 1/2 cup of coffee laden with cream and sugar. My reward for helping.
Is weight loss any different? Obviously our parents or grandparents won't be the ones rewarding us but should we be rewarding ourselves? Will that same logic make our weight-loss journey more pleasant?
I hadn't thought about my special times with my grandmother, who has since passed, for quite awhile. What a great lady. Little did she know that the reward was just being with her and having her teach me things I still remember. Not to mention that maybe part of my weight problems may stem from the donuts and the 1/2 cup of "coffee syrup" and, of course, the reward of "food." Certainly gives me something to think about given my relationship with food and why I am thinking about rewards and whether it might be a motivator, like when I was a kid.
So, I was thinking (always dangerous) that if I could stay "on track" for an entire week (7 whole days) then I would reward myself. With what, I'm not sure. It's an incentive to do better and that's how I justified it in my swampy little mind. Like the dangling carrot in front of the bunny.
So, I have set some mini-goals for myself and wondering if or what would be an appropriate reward. See what you think.
1. Exercise at least 5 times this week. (So far I've cross-country skied twice - About an hour each time)
2. Moderation in food intake (weigh and measure if I'm unsure of portions). Doing good so far but it's early in the week.
3. Be accountable for what goes in my mouth. That means everything that goes in my mouth. (Just to let you know, I have eaten one evil Girl Scout cookie this week. One lonely thin mint and it was for dessert after dinner. The remaining cookies have been placed out of my sight. As we all know, I could find them if I wanted to!)
Rewards??? Share if you reward yourself and let me know what you use as a reward. I might like it so much I'll steal it!!!
Monday, February 25, 2008
So, I updated my progress chart tonight and I have to say, the last few months resemble a straight line heart monitor with a few upword beats. Downward movement, not so much. My goal is to make it better. Hopefully next week we will see some movement in the right direction.
Long day, I'm tired and in need of some rest. I'm aiming for an early morning cross country ski so I'll keep you posted. Goodnight.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
1. For those of you who have been following my little problem (okay, okay, it's not a little problem) with Girl Scout Cookies which I talked about earlier this week. I have news to report. I did my weekly grocery shopping this afternoon and low and behold who do you think was stationed outside the front door, actually both doors, of Wal Mart? Yeah, you guessed it, the Girl Scouts and their damned evil cookies. I want you to know they came at me like a swarm of mosquitoes looking to suck your blood and leave a welt to remind you later. Their sweet little voices asking in perfect unison, "Mam, would you like to buy some Girl Scout cookies?" Well, I smiled with confidence and answered, "No thank you I already have several boxes." Can you freaking believe it? I did it, I didn't give in this time. Could it be that I didn't want to give in or is it another Atmospheric Phenomenon?
2. On another front, I have cross-county skied two days in a row (2 miles each day). If Mother Nature isn't going to throw me a bone with the weather, I'll show her. I'll beat her at her own game. I'll just keep skiing until May!!!
So, all in all, the weekend has been pleasant, house cleaning, laundry, grocery shopping and a little coffee sipping by the fire with the husband and the golden retriever.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
1. Relax (this is going to be a tough one but I'm going to try)
I have to say, after typing this post, I'm feeling a little better about the weekend. I have to accept what has happened, be happy I have a chance to start over and focus on what I'm doing right now, this very moment, to correct what has already happened. I may need some encouragement, though, so anybody out there feeling like they want to give advice, please feel free.....
Oh, when I got back to the office this morning, guess what was on my chair? Four boxes of Girl Scout cookies. They were delivered late on Friday after I was gone for the day. Weight loss gods at work again. Don't you just love it.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
My husband and I have been married 27 years now and we aren't so much into the Valentine's Day hype. You can call us old fuddy duddies, it's okay. I do have some candy for him. He can eat candy every day and not have a problem with his weight. I bought him a can of Mixed Nuts, a box of Dots and a big package of Reese's Peanut Butter Big Cups.
Observation, my husband only eats when he's hungry and stops when he's full. He won't eat just because. I will offer him something and he will say, "No, I think I'm full." Me on the other hand, especially if it's candy, nuts, cookies, cake, would eat it even if I'm full. What is the difference in us that makes that possible? Why does he have the control over food that I don't? His relationship with food is basically he needs it to live and work each day. I have a very different relationship with food. I always want what I perceive as something I shouldn't have. Does that make any sense at all? Me and the husband have made some deals over the years in an attempt to even out the odds of him never gaining weight and me looking at food and doing the opposite. Here are a few of those compromises:
- that we try to reduce our consumption of red meat and lean more toward the chicken and fish and occasionally no meat at all, shhh, a vegetarian dish. I had to work at this last one.
- we have a vegetable with dinner each and every night. I truly have to say this one has been a success. Both of us are now vegetable connoisseurs.
- try to keep candy, cookies and sugar laden treats from entering the house on a regular basis.
- try new recipes.
- he will support me in my weight loss efforts and I will support him in his love for football. (This, of course means that we will eat lowfat snacks while watching!)
- have patience with me when I come home grumpy from weigh in when I've gained.
- never be a food pusher.
- work with me when I get excited about a new food find or cookbook.
- love me no matter whether I've gained and praise me when I have lost.
So, see why we are still Valentines after 27 years. Have you and your Valentine done any weight loss compromising over the years? If so, pray tell...
Hope you and your Valentine have a great V Day.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Monday, February 11, 2008
So, food wise, it was an okay day. Used some flex points which I really didn't want to but I did and now I'm moving on. Tuesday is another day and I am saying goodbye to Monday, February 11, 2008.
I had a friend who I hadn't seen in about five months say to me today, "Wow, you look great!" Why did she have to say that? I don't feel like I look great. I feel like I'm still packing around 5 lb of extra Christmas grazing weight. Of course, I, just like Katieo, in her post about Should I Stay or Should I Go? then said to myself, "What do I need to lose a few pounds for? She said I look great." Also the reason for the use of flex points. She said I look great, you know. Well, the reason is simple. I need to feel better about myself. Yes, let me say it again. I need to feel better about myself. There, I've said it.
Does this ever happen to you and then you have second thoughts about your weight loss efforts and sabotage a great day???
Sunday, February 10, 2008
- Dust off the journal
- Get out the food scale
- Make sure frig is stocked with good things (someone once said to me if you stand in front of the refrigerator and aren't hungry enough to each a piece of fruit, you aren't that hungry). Right now I have salad, veggies, fruit, string cheese, yogurt, fat free salad dressings and I'm sure a few other things that are good for me. So, I have a start on a fabulous week.
- Sit down and plan dinners for the week - I'll get back to you and let you know what I come up with.
- Exercise at least five times this week
- Get my tax information to the accountant (not weight related but it's making me nervous)
So, there you have it. It's a plan in writing. I tend to stick to something better if I see it in writing.
Oh, I crosscountry skied today - yikes my muscles are sore. But in a good way.
Friday, February 8, 2008
- As far as weight gain or loss, a calorie is a calorie. If you normally eat a healthy diet with lots of fruits, vegetables, fiber, healthy protein, good fats and whole grains, I don't believe that eating nothing but candy and sugar for only one single day would really do any damage to your body in the long run. You would feel bad for a day or so, though. SEE, I'M FEELING BETTER ABOUT MYSELF NOW. NO TRULY LONG LASTING EFFECTS OF EATING NOTHING GOOD FOR ME THIS ENTIRE DAY. WELL, MAYBE A FEW OTHER DAYS, TOO.
- Of course if you started eating like that with some frequency, you would have vitamin and mineral deficiencies, you wouldn't get the healthy fats you need, you would eat too many saturated and unhealthy trans fats and you wouldn't get enough protein. You would probably have poor health due to the deficiencies, low energy levels, and your immune system wouldn't work as well as it should. SO, NOT FEELING SO GREAT ABOUT IT NOW. BUT CAN I JUST SAY THERE ARE NO TRANS FATS IN CANDY.. OKAY, STILL NOT FEELING SO GREAT.
- One problem with sodas and candy is that once we start indulging our cravings for those sweets, the cravings get worse and worse and we may eat more and more of the sugary foods which would displace all the healthy foods we really need. BINGO WE HAVE A WINNER.....
I want to be happy when I do this. Right now, I'm just not feelin the love. The scale and I are having a difference of opinion. My opinion is that it should be the number I want it to be and it's opinion is that it will be the number that it truly is. I literally want to have my cake and eat it too. Without the consequences, of course. I need to make better choices and be more accountable. So, I'm moving on, I'm stepping away from the candy and cookies. I don't want to play Bingo anymore.
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Monday, February 4, 2008
- The importance of eating healthy
- The art of understanding food labels
- That vegetables are actually good for me and don't have to be deep fried or drenched in salad dressing
- That exercise is NOT a four letter word
- That fast food is not a "life saver"
- Not everything you eat needs to be drenched in butter
- Dessert is not one of the main food groups
- Your plate doesn't have to be 100% covered with food to make you satisfied
- The importance of understanding my relationship with food (actually a work in progress)
- I don't have to cook like my mother
- I don't have to be fat because I've always been fat
- I can be happy, confident and social (I used to pass up invitations to attend social functions because I was self conscious)
- I can speak in public (not a chance I would have done this prior to WW)
- I can run - Yes, I said run
- I don't have to please everybody, just those who care about and understand me
- Food is something I need to live, I don't live for food
- The scale is not always EVIL (actually sometimes it's magic)
- I can be successful at weight loss
- Maintenance is not as easy as losing
- P A T I E N C E
So, after reviewing the things I have learned through this process I think my answer is No. The weight loss wand may offer weight loss magic, but where does that leave me? I think it would leave me with no tools to continue on and a guarantee that I would be back seeking more "magic" because I couldn't do it on my own. I have learned so much through this process and, you know what, I don't think I would give any of it up for some "stinkin wand." I love the fact that I know I am in charge of my weight loss future, me and only me. I will do what it takes to make my own fairy tale. I encourage you to make yours. Check this out -Magical Fairytale Moments.
Friday, February 1, 2008
4 chicken breasts -4 oz each
1/2 cup seasoned breadcrumbs (I used italian)
2 tsp italian seasoning, salt and pepper to taste (I also added a little grinder garlic sea salt)
4 tsp olive oil
2 cups tomato sauce
4 Tblsp marinara sauce
3 cups spaghetti squash, cooked
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Coat an oven proof dish with cooking spray. Mix breadcrumbs and seasonings in a large zip lock bag. Throw in the chicken and shake to coat. Meanwhile heat the olive oil in a large skillet over medium heat. Add chicken and cook until lightly browned on both sides. Set aside. Place the spaghetti squash in the oven proof dish and pour the tomato sauce over it. Sprinkle with 1/2 of the cheese. Place browned chicken on top of the cheese and top each breast with 1Tblsp of marinara sauce. Sprinkle with the remaining cheese. Bake for about 20 minutes or so or until bubbling and cooked through.